Every so often, I get emails that break my heart. This has been one of those weeks. There are many mothers out there just hating what their mothering is, what they themselves are right now. And that breaks my heart.
Sometimes I don’t know all the details, all the circumstances. Is this a chronic feeling and struggle or is it something right here in the moment? Is it part of or tied to the July doldrums (if any of you have read this blog for awhile, you know how I feel about July here: http://theparentingpassageway.com/2010/07/05/the-july-doldrums-again/ )
We ALL have moments we feel like this. We may even be having more than just moments, we may be having rough patches with our children where we honestly feel like this for an extended period of time. Some seasons of parenting are so difficult, so challenging. Some children have behavior that is challenging and it just challenges us.
And we don’t always handle it well. We don’t always handle it with grace. We don’t always handle it with love. Sometimes it is hard to see how to best react when it is your own child and we don’t have that outside view looking at someone else’s child doing the same behavior.
Sometimes we feel our children would be better off with anyone else but ourselves. I have been there too. I get to those points too, and all I can say is that for me, it is a sign that there is too much going on. Too much outside pressure, too harried to respond to things in an even-keeled way, too many things to tend to, and a clear sign my spiritual footing has been neglected, and most likely a sign that my physical body is not being taken care of.
I often think of the village raising a child – how different than all the shaping of a child being done by mainly one or two parents! Or I think of my own childhood – at school most of the day, coming home and going outside to play until dark, going to bed. I wasn’t always around a whole lot. No one had to “arrange” play dates and things to do back then, and the parents were not involved in every dramatic friendship disagreement or thing at school.
For better or for worse, things have changed on a societal level and we put an awful lot of pressure on ourselves. We talk about not wanting to push our children, but yet we push the hell out of ourselves. We talk about our children being wonderful, never taking credit for that at all, but when they don’t “act well”, then somehow it is all our fault.
Just musings….So, anyway, once you have a good cry, see if any of this resonates: Continue reading