So many times when we find a new way of doing things in our homes and in our lives, we look back at what we were doing in the past and say, “Wow! I can’t believe that I thought that was the right way to do things! I can’t believe that is how we did things in our house and in our homeschool and in our lives!” We feel guilty that we didn’t do the things then that we are doing now. Many times we especially feel guilty about the path we walked with our older children and how we feel our younger children are getting a benefit the older ones never had. How do we go back?
We cannot reverse time. You were just as good a mother then as you are now, it is just now you have different information and a different framework with which to base decisions on. You may now have a different way of looking at the grades and at childhood now, and that is okay.
Instead of ravaging yourself with guilt, which truly doesn’t help any household to be more peaceful, try to congratulate yourself on the steps you are taking today to bring your household into more peace, more joy and more love. You may find yourself living with more order, but also more FUN! (Which many people think must be a contradiction in terms before they come to Waldorf!)
Look at your baby steps and how far you have come. See this post for help: http://theparentingpassageway.com/2009/03/13/baby-steps-to-waldorf-rhythm/
If you find you are getting swallowed up by Waldorf and the need for “Waldorf perfection” try this extremely popular post: http://theparentingpassageway.com/2009/03/12/hopeless-with-waldorf/
Most of all, enjoy this journey, this precious time with your family and your children. You cannot get this time back, and look at what a wonderful job you are doing moving forward!
Be proud of who you are, how far you have come, love yourself and your family.
Much love to you and yours,